Crazy World

"...full of crazy contradictions like a child..." That's from the song Crazy World (VICTOR/VICTORIA).

So...as any of you who know me, I'm always on a constant roller-coaster and quite frankly seem to function better riding the highs and lows. But lately, the train seems to have stopped in a dip. I feel that for the past couple months I have been in a bit of a "minimal functioning funk." I find myself constantly drawn to waste time on things that are not good for me, I haven't been writing, or auditioning much and I keep wondering when ALL the irons I have in the fire (or as I now like to say...the cold furnace) spark something? I mean it's getting down to the wire in terms of my finances and living situation and of course that stresses me out even more so that I find myself not doing what I need to do.

Today, finally, was a first step back up the track of that big hill...I went to three auditions and have some appointments and a call-back later this week. But I always have this panging feeling of uncertainty and fear. At my age shouldn't I be over all that by now?

I feel I continue to give better and better auditions (when I actually go) because I feel confident in what I am bringing into the room, prepared and rarely nervous or desparate. But today for example, all of that went out the door and I felt like some nervous teenager again. And I think part of that comes from the fact that I AM getting a bit more desparate (I really need this job).

Well, I knew what I was getting back into when I came back to the biz full-time last year...so I guess whining is pointless.

Enough of the contradictions, I would like some consistancy please. Thank you.

THE TRUTH IS OUT THERE

I'm not talking about aliens (well...then again...) but in all seriousness I have begun to worry more about this country than ever before. People just don't do their homework and then when they are given "proven and undeniable truths" they still call it propaganda if it's not to their liking. Well when I talk about John McCain and people say to me, "Stop using scare tactics to intimidate me into voting for the Democrats," I am really VERY confused. I have no power in Washington, my only voice is my vote and maybe some emails and calls to my senators and congress persons. I'm not trying to scare anyone. And I am NOT making things up as I go along to win a point. My argument is clear and sound and has not changed. I just quote McCain and the Republican platform. Go ahead, do your research. The things I say are true. If those things scare you, then shouldn't that tell you something? And come on now, you REALLY don't think John McCain will lower your taxes and Barack will raise them do you? You do listen to the actual facts right? McCain wants to keep that measly tax return that Bush gave the "middle class" while helping the rich get more tax breaks. So it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out that while we'll continue to get that crappy rebate, taxes for the poor and middle class will most likely stay the same or go up. However Obama, will give REAL relief to the poor and middle class by yes, RAISING taxes, but not on Joe American but on Donald Trump and the oil tycoons. And guess what? They SHOULD pay more in taxes. The corporate giants like Mobile and Exxon should take on more tax while "Ma and Pa American" get some real tax breaks and not just and extra $125.

And Obama can get attacked for using a phrase that John McCain has used in public at LEAST 4 times but it's ok for McCain to lie like a rug about Obama, his record and his plans.

So watch SOME TRUTH and if you think it's propaganda, do the research yourself.

Please don't let the POD PEOPLE take over

I am convinced, having watched the third night of the RNC, that most Republicans are Pod People. Now that is one of those unfair, blanket statements and some of you may not be pods, but come on, "Drill baby, drill?" It felt like I was watching a documentary on Jim Jones, year 2008. And I feel a bit more confident on my observations because I grew up in staunch Republican Land. It used to be that Republicans stood for fiscal responsibility and keeping government out of our business. But over the years it has morphed into a party that is in bed with big oil, big business, wants less government UNLESS it means going to war or fighting the liberals or routing out those horrible fags who destroy our moral fiber (please see the sarcasm in that last comment). They have become the party of exclusion and fiscal IRRESPONSIBILITY.

Now let me be fair...I wasn't voting for McCain anyway. But this pick of Sarah Palin? I am so offended by this woman on so many levels. Using her Downs child as an advocacy ploy? My brother had Downs. My mother was a SINGLE mom who had a Downs child in the 60's when it was considerered an abarassment; a failure. It's one thing to talk about the challenges of being a parent with a disabled child - it is quite another to appeal to families of disabled children to vote for her as if they should feel some sort of connection to her JUST because of that. What? Furthermore, she was FOR the bridge to nowhere and is now against it. She is for drilling, drilling, drilling and guns, guns, guns. And make sure we shoot all the wolves from the air, cause, "It's funner!"

The Republicans have said that Sarah Palin has motivated the base and that all these voters (woman who were so for Hillary, Independants and conservative Democrats will suddenly jump on board). But here is something no one is talking about - the gains from those folks will be balanced out by the white male cheuvanist Republicans who will NEVER vote for a woman because her only place is "barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen." (That is their thought, not mine). Now those good ole boys would never vote for a black man either, so Obama isn't going to gain them, but the Republicans WILL lose them. And Palin isn't just motivating the conservative base, she is motivating the liberal base. How do I know? Because I just sent a contribution to Obama when I wasn't planning on doing it. I was gonna vote for him, try to get out the word on his candidacy, but money...no. But because of Sarah Palin and the RNC last night, I sent money.

Finally...you can't have it both ways. You want the media to report on your son going to Iraq and the fact that you have a Downs child but you don't want them to report on your daughter having a child out of wedlock (by the way if Chelsea Clinton were in that situation, the Republicans would have stoned her) or the fact that you tried to get a Trooper fired for personal reasons using your power as Governor? The press often annoys the crap out of me - they constantly talked about Obama's inexperience and Clinton's vote for the war and focused more on Bill Clinton at times than Hillary. But you know what? The truth is out there and it is indeed their job to find it and report it, particularly if you are in position to be the leader of the free world.

So as I have said many times...if you are on the fence, or you are voting based on personality or who you think you might like to have a drink with...do some research PLEASE. Find out what the party's actually stand for. If you love guns and war and think poor people are only poor because they are lazy and wish all gay people would move to Paris, then by all means, the Republican Party is for you. But if you believe in civil rights, a woman's right to choose, helping those that are less fortunate, saving the environment for our children and bringing about PEACE in the world, then you can not vote for the Republicans. Note...i did not tell you that you have to vote for the Democrats.

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