As the sun sets on Hawaii

As i come to the end of my time in Hawaii, I can't help but reflect on the trip and also the way it represents my life. Yesterday was my birthday and today is the 30th anniversary of my brother's death! He is ALWAYS with me and indeed a psychic once told me he stays off my right shoulder to guard me - I believe it! And my dear Mom, gone over 12 years now is also always in my thoughts. So while I travelled here alone, the spirit of others, alive and past are with me as I celebrate, rejuvenate, meditate, observe and enjoy. I realize that the reason I keep coming back to Hawaii (this is my 4th time) is that it represents the best of nature for me and of course it represents the spirit that is Aloha.

I am glad that I was able to come by myself and reflect - sometimes we need to just be alone with ourselves to understand the journey and be grateful for all that our life has been - mine has been extraordinary, really. And I am thankful for all of it. But it also allows me to understand that while aloneness is essential and healing that ultimately spending time with another; sharing; laughing together; being with another or others, is how we experience joy exponentially.

I will come back to Hawaii soon, but next time, it will be with someone - a friend, my niece, David...the joy will be exponential!

So now to share my b-day dinner and photos of the sunset:

DINNER
2 glasses of Sancerre
A bottle of "still" water
2 fresh raw oysters from Washington State
Caesar Salad with white anchovies
A petit filet mignon
3 giant grilled prawns
Chocolate Lava Cake with vanilla ice cream
10 year old Port
Cappuccino

Doesn't get much better! Enjoy the sunset and seek the joy!!!

Another Trip to Provincetown

I love P-Town. It's a place that always makes me feel like I'm welcome and I don't have to be anyone but me. It's ok that I'm an actor...it's ok that I'm Italian...it's ok that I'm 40 something and not an Adonis...and it's ok that I'm gay. This is the first time I've been since I moved out so it was "different." And I can not deny, that so much of my history with this place includes David - it will always be our town - our place! So much of P-Town is familiar to me - it feels like home. And I went to an opening of a new Lounge - SHIPWRECK LOUNGE - and saw familiar faces, even tho I don't really know them, and they don't know me. But they are "Townies" as the locals call themselves and I recognized them as artists and business owners from the town. And even tho the season hasn't really gotten underway, I love the sunshine when I'm there...and yes, I even love the rain. I was able to finish the book Eat, Pray, Love and now of course, I am convinced that the whole book is a sign for my life. Granted, while it was familiar and inspiring (like the streets and restaurants of P-Town) I am STILL not sure what the hell I am doing with my life! AHHHHHHH!

So on that note, I leave with you five photos I took with my new camera!

Enjoy!

It's been awhile...

Clearly it has been a long time since I have posted anything. It's been a crazy time these past few months (since before the New Year really). Just thought I would post a quick update with the most major news:

1). I moved out of the house and am now living in a small apartment on my own (although currently, I have a friend staying with me until June to help pay the rent!)

2). I am still unemployed and looking for work in a variety of arenas although certainly I would love to be in a show!

3). I spend WAY too much time on Facebook!

4). I have been selling giclee prints of my Mom's paintings which I will share on here soon. You can also see them at MAMA GEN'S PAINTINGS

5). I am taking several short getaway trips this Spring and early Summer to try and put it all in perspective.

6). I am working on a concept for a musical review tentatively titled: VAUDEVILLE AIN'T DEAD: SOME PEOPLE LIKE IT BIG!

7). I'm still here!